How do you say goodbye??
Hi
I have left my husband and we are getting a divorce. He refused to accept my kids from my previous marriage. I found a very big house and moved in 2 weeks ago. My husband has hurt me bad. He has said that he doesn’t love me, and even helped me move (although he didn’t mean it as bad, he only wanted to help). Point is: he has made it very clear that he doesn’t want me. He took off his wedding ring almost immediately. But, I still love him. And he says he loves me and wants no other woman. We kinda decided to keep a relationship going and see what happens in the future. On the one hand I want him out of my life. I want to live my life, alone then, if need be, but without his interference. And on the other hand, I can’t get myself to say it to him. The finality of the matter. The REALLY OVER NOW part. I’m just not ready for that yet. What makes it harder, is that I have 3 kids from 2 husbands. My chances of finding anyone again is very slim. Financially you can imagine that it won’t be very easy. Which means I will lose out on a lot of things to do and see without a partner. I am scared of being left behind. My friends support me, but they all have their lives to go on with. And it’s not always fun to invite a mom and her THREE kids to a party…. I am not depressed. I am not lonely. My desperation levels are much lower than what it used to be. But, how do I accept that my marriage has failed for a second time?? And everything that goes with that??
I have left my husband and we are getting a divorce. He refused to accept my kids from my previous marriage. I found a very big house and moved in 2 weeks ago. My husband has hurt me bad. He has said that he doesn’t love me, and even helped me move (although he didn’t mean it as bad, he only wanted to help). Point is: he has made it very clear that he doesn’t want me. He took off his wedding ring almost immediately. But, I still love him. And he says he loves me and wants no other woman. We kinda decided to keep a relationship going and see what happens in the future. On the one hand I want him out of my life. I want to live my life, alone then, if need be, but without his interference. And on the other hand, I can’t get myself to say it to him. The finality of the matter. The REALLY OVER NOW part. I’m just not ready for that yet. What makes it harder, is that I have 3 kids from 2 husbands. My chances of finding anyone again is very slim. Financially you can imagine that it won’t be very easy. Which means I will lose out on a lot of things to do and see without a partner. I am scared of being left behind. My friends support me, but they all have their lives to go on with. And it’s not always fun to invite a mom and her THREE kids to a party…. I am not depressed. I am not lonely. My desperation levels are much lower than what it used to be. But, how do I accept that my marriage has failed for a second time?? And everything that goes with that??