Having a miscarriage, need advice please!
Here is what has been happening. My last period was Dec. 26th-30th, I ovulated on the 13th of January ( I took a ovulation test, and was measuring my bbt so I’m pretty sure I ovulated on that day) I took a pregnancy test on Jan 28th and got a positive result. On Wens Feb. 17th I woke up with terrible painful cramps, but no bleeding. Since this is my first pregnancy, I decided to go to the er just to make sure everything was ok. The er doctor told me that he thought I was having a miscarriage. He said he thought I had a blighted ovum be cause he saw the gestational sac, but not the baby, and that I should be far enough along to see the baby by now, he told me to go to my obgyn to confirm this. I went to my obgyn that friday and he said the same thing, we saw the gestational sac, but no yolk sac or baby. He said he wanted to do another ultrasound in a week, if I hadn’t miscarried by then. Well a week went by and no cramping, no bleeding, nothing. So we went back to the doctor. This time the ultrasound showed there was a yolk sac!!! He still could not see the baby thought and from the blood tests he had been running he said my hcg levels were dropping! He said he thinks I should have had twins and one of them died, which would explain my gestational sac looking so large, and my hcg levels dropping, but no other miscarriage symptoms. He said the yolk sac looked good, but was still worried that he didn’t see the baby, he also checked my cervix and it was completely closed, which he said was a good sign. He said we weren’t out of the woods yet, not until we see the baby. My concern is based on my dates I should be far enough along to see the baby that’s survived. I really don’t know how to feel right now. I’m sacred, I’m sad,I’m hopeful. I don’t know what to do with myself. Anybody have any advice, or been through something similar? Anything would help right now, thanks. Sorry my post was so long
So I go back to the doctor today and he does another ultrasound, The ultrasound showed that even though my cervix is still not dilated, my gestational sac is starting to collapse and my hcg levels are still dropping. He said he now saw what should have been my twins but they had no heartbeat. He gave me a choice of either starting medication to start the miscarriage or having a D&C. I don’t know what to do, having to go through the physical pain of taking the medication and bleeding for days, I’ve been on such a emotional roller coaster these past few weeks I kind of want it all over with. On the other hand I don’t think I can emotionally go through a d&C, watching what should have been my babies being sucked out of me, with a vacuum cleaner, is a little more than I can bear right now. To top it off I’ve lost my job because I’ve been off work this whole time because my dr. put me on bed rest.
I don’t know what to do. I’m scared and heartbroken and angry. All of my friends are pregnant right now!! I can’t turn to them, even my best friend, she has the same due date I did!!! I really can’t take it, everywhere I go I see happy pregnant people, and I know it is wrong but I’m angry. Why my babies. I know I shouldn’t think that way and these things just happen. I just feel so lost right now. If anybody has any type of advice or encouragement I could really use it.
